I am super stressed, and having an ever-growing run of “bad days”.
I have no idea what to do about it
I take my meds. I keep my appointments with my doctor and my therapist. I reach out to friends for help. I keep trying different “coping” mechanisms.
I’m truthful with my providers.
I gaze at my own navel and try to solve my own problems. I try to get other people to solve my problems.
It feels like I’m spinning my wheels.
I took off yesterday to “relax and recuperate” from the stress I’m feeling and the resultant depression and anxiety. Last night, I knew I was going to need today, too.
I wound up going to bed at 2:30am in a total depressive funk. I woke up promptly at 8am with my heart pounding out of my chest (again). I couldn’t get back to sleep.
I’m a totally emotionally unstable crack monkey today.